It is official I am employed again. I like it. I am completely excited about it.
Though after a month with no job it feels weird that I have to go to work.... I like waking up whenever and doing whatever all day.
Though, I do need to pay my bills.
And now that I have a job, perhaps I can look about the Sunshine State and see about having a real life, and making new friends, and getting settled. This is all good stuff.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
A Question that I didn't have an answer to...
The other day, Bats asked me a question I was actually speechless from. He asked me how he could be a Top, because he knew that is what I wanted. Even now after we have talked about it a little, I still don't know what I really think.
Anyone who knows me will tell you that I am never quiet about things I have ideas on. And even now I am talking about how I have no idea what to tell him, in total. I have never been in a situation where I could have input on such a thing. I really am not sure I really should "train" him. Though any sane minded person would want to do such a thing... but I want him to be able to do it.
Not that I want him to be all alone on his journey, I want to help him, but I am not sure how. Is finding something for him to read and letting him take it from here enough? If I tell him, I am not sure it will be right... cause then it's all me. Not that I think that he can't think for himself, cause he can. He is a very open minded person... a little too open sometimes, yet I can't help but wonder.
Of course it doesn't help either that I am currently jobless... and I know that I am putting a lot of stress on myself from it. I realize that I am in a workforce where everyone is looking for a job so I can't expect to have one just jump out, but at the same time, I am really tired of being jerked around being told that someone has a job for me, only when I call 5 minutes later, I get nothing from the potential employer. I mean why tell me to call right back, when they don't even bother to answer the phone, or even call me back? (End of silly rant).
Back on sorts. I do almost feel like he is "making" this change because of me, but I love him the way he is, I don't want him to change. But at the same time... It might be fun. ;-)
Anyone who knows me will tell you that I am never quiet about things I have ideas on. And even now I am talking about how I have no idea what to tell him, in total. I have never been in a situation where I could have input on such a thing. I really am not sure I really should "train" him. Though any sane minded person would want to do such a thing... but I want him to be able to do it.
Not that I want him to be all alone on his journey, I want to help him, but I am not sure how. Is finding something for him to read and letting him take it from here enough? If I tell him, I am not sure it will be right... cause then it's all me. Not that I think that he can't think for himself, cause he can. He is a very open minded person... a little too open sometimes, yet I can't help but wonder.
Of course it doesn't help either that I am currently jobless... and I know that I am putting a lot of stress on myself from it. I realize that I am in a workforce where everyone is looking for a job so I can't expect to have one just jump out, but at the same time, I am really tired of being jerked around being told that someone has a job for me, only when I call 5 minutes later, I get nothing from the potential employer. I mean why tell me to call right back, when they don't even bother to answer the phone, or even call me back? (End of silly rant).
Back on sorts. I do almost feel like he is "making" this change because of me, but I love him the way he is, I don't want him to change. But at the same time... It might be fun. ;-)
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